Out of the Mouths of Liars…

Out of the Mouthes of Liars…


Would you believe another man’s tale, or rely on your own Gnosis and Experiential Knowledge?

What is Truth in the realm of a Subjective Experience?

What if…

Instead of believing the tales of other men, you consider them, just for a moment to determine if your own story holds merit.

What if…

You have your own Near-Death-Experience but instead of awakening to the Kingdom of God, you instead awaken in an Infernal Realm where Satan is God? The dominion of truth, and the illumination of realization: All that you’ve been told is a LIE!

In another time, another story…Christ is the ultimate Adversary, willing to die for his own story.  He’s willing to die for it, but not willing to kill for it.

Are you?


The Bible Makers have been spending a great deal of time to tell you a tale,  the preacher man wants to lead you…The flock…Into a sea of lies!  Will you drown in the Abyss?  What is the REAL story of this magical tome?

Will you return to your life, after nearly slipping into Oblivion, and realize that this thing is stirring inside of you IS Leviathan?  The quest for knowledge, truth and absolute power that slithers around your spine and rests upon your very being!

You are not content to be told fairy tales! Instead you are determined to write your own!  The tales that you tell around the fire have far more admirable qualities, and the heroes are a far stronger force to be reckoned with!

Why should you be nothing more than sheep a midst the wolves?  Even wolves have pack mentality, those little pups will submit to the Alpha when it rises in rank!  Instead you grab up a bow, and become the hunter of beasts!  That meat sure would be tasty, and the pelts will keep you warm at night as you sharpen your arrows against the stone.

Shhh, Hush now.  Wolves are not sacred or holy animals.  They are beasts like any other in this world!

The stone is the lithosphere of the Earth, and mankind is just as much a part of it as it is of man.  There is no extraterrestrial being that is going to save you from being smashed upon it!

Instead, become the Geologist and learn the ways of the Stone.  Learn which stones are soft, and which are the most hard; use the right tools and shatter them into things you can use!  Weapons against those that seek to fool you with their lies, deceptions and lead you astray from the things you really want!

Your wants can be a pebble in the pond of desire, or the highest mountain’s peak!

Do you think I’m a liar?  Then for your own sake, find the truth of the matter!


Grotto Magazine: Fall Edition

A word from Mama SIN…

Kids of this generation are no more or less rebellious than they had been in the past but they do have access to more information as Social Media allows them to perform personal research and gain perspective from others in their peer group.

A new generation of Satanists is on the rise, and it usually starts in childhood.   The youth will come into their own like the rest of us.  They are asking questions that seek answers.  Young people often feel oppressed by their parents when restrictions are placed upon them.  Some of those restrictions are for their own good, while others may be rooted in the psychological baggage of the parents that raise them.  I’ve written a fair bit in the past about the differences between being a parent and a baby-sitter.  Raising a child isn’t just making sure these children are out of harm’s way, it involves guidance with humility.  These kids are going to be adults before you know it and if YOU as the parent make critical mistakes WE the people have to suffer them.

Dysfunctional adults run amok in this country, and it’s often because of unresolved childhood traumas.  If I had a nickle for every time I spoke to an adult still lamenting over their upbringing I’d be sitting on a mountain of fool’s gold.  These folks are still trying to figure out a way to get over the harsh treatment they received as children, and much of it was complete subjugation and oppression.  Kids need guidance not some Sadistic beat down every time they explore and experiment with thought and action.

Like adults, the youth will have their own struggles and strife to endure, all the while being regarded as property.  As such objectified beings they often have only a minuscule measure of Liberty and Freedom.   And so, they jump into cyber-space head first looking for valuable information that can help them cope with the trials and tribulations of their daily lives.  They are looking for knowledge and tools that liberate them from their oppressors.

I often have children reach out to me for information on the occult, paganism, and Satanism and I treat these kids as if they were my own.  I am not going to teach them how to become an Occultist, Satanist or Pagan.  Instead, I’ll guide them to examine why they believe the Occult will liberate them, and with the notion that they should speak to their parents about the feelings they have.

When my son has friends over and they want to raid my library, I have a strict policy.  The answer is NO.  I am not seeking to oppress their thirst for knowledge, I am advising them that this type of knowledge requires introspect and self-governance.  Some of these kids are troubled and have problems at home.  It’s not my responsibility to raise other people’s children.   It’s my responsibility to not exacerbate matters by adding the confusion of Occultism into the mix of issues they are dealing with at home.

When young people reach out to me online, I just use common sense.  Adults often treat kids like a plague on Social Networking platforms because of the stigma of being viewed as a predator for speaking with children.  It’s a reality we all have to deal with.  Kids of high school age are often looking for mentors and spiritual guides.  If they are already studying the Occult and ask me questions for my perspective, I’ll provide it as a parent.

Some of these kids are so desperate to have a voice of their own, they will ask me to be a commentator on my radio show.  My answer?  Not without parental consent.  Obviously I’m not checking I.D. if I get a live caller, but this is rare.  Most of the time, these kids are hiding their interests from their parents because of parental concerns at home.   These concerns are rational and often reasonable.

The fact of the matter is the Occult can do a number on the psyche of an underdeveloped mind.  And if kids are seeking it out as a quick fix to the problems they have at home, then obviously the reasoning is off.  Some writers of public content don’t give a rat’s ass about these kids.  They are sharing these quick fixes for them to acquire and sometimes they are even tailor-made for them.  It’s all for $6.66 you can perform a magic spell to Kill your mother!  I know, it’s ridiculous but it can’t be helped in such a chaotic environment like the World Wide Web.

And oh what a wicked web it weaves!

When I write to offer my perspective, it’s just that: My perspective.  I’m not here to teach you how to become a Satanist, Occultist or pagan.  My perspective added to the pool is in the name of mediating understanding about diversity and individualism.  And believe me when I say, it’s a cesspool.

There are crazies everywhere and they too have their own perspectives.  Their words are just as symbolic as my words and can be the influencing agent of your mind, and the minds of your children.  As a parent myself I’ve always been responsible in monitoring my child’s activity online.  Have a look see, and try to find my beloved offspring.  I assure you, you won’t find him.  You can say what you want about me and my persona, what you cannot prove is that I’m a terrible parent.

Living your life on your own terms also requires a level of guidance for your children to understand who you are beyond your role as a parent.  Some people choose to place their lives in some protective bubble to be popped one day when their child comes to realize that they really had no idea who they are as an individual.  My child knows who and what I am.  It’s also my responsibility to learn about my child and his individualism.  I always keep the channels of communication open while allowing my son his own privacy.  I’ve guided him to be self-governing; I sometimes have to step in when he’s making poor choices to guide him to better choices.

My role as a parent is nearly over but I will always be his mother.    As his mother, I will always be available to him when he needs me but it is my hope that he won’t need me.   Some parents are so co-dependent on their children that they rely on them for their complete existence.  I’ve observed mothers that hinder their children’s progress and growth because they are lonely and need their children for company.  They don’t encourage them to become autonomous; instead they foster the notion that they are NOTHING without them.  I consider that child abuse.

Some parents are so controlling that they have to have their hand in every decision made, and what children will grow up to become.  They even try to live vicariously through them.  This is what I’m talking about when I write about living a full life.  Why fake it?  Why not get out there and do what you want to do, be what you want to be and live the way you want to live?  Otherwise you will have those feelings of resentment and often channel them through your own children.

If you missed your chance, I say: Tough Shit. Just because you missed opportunities or wasted your time, doesn’t mean you have the ‘right’ or ‘privilege’ to ride your children’s coattails like that boat you missed.  Get over it.  Get over yourself.  When your children have matured and are on their own, maybe then you can pick up where you left off.  Raising a child is a big responsibility.  It does require a level of personal sacrifice and managing your compulsions to be a Solipsistic Asshole.

For the youth I offer this:

You do have power.  You can attain liberty and have some semblance of control over your own lives IF you are up to the task of mediating understanding to your parents.  If your parents are dysfunctional and abusive, you do not have to endure this treatment.  There is always a way to liberate yourself from your oppressors.  It will take personal responsibility and being held accountable for your actions.

If your complaint is that your parent won’t just let you destroy yourself with drugs or reckless behavior, well then obviously it’s YOU being the solipsistic asshole.  Grow up.  Learn why these behaviors are concerning to your parent and what effects they can have on your life when you become an adult.  You won’t be a child forever.  Your young life is just a blip by comparison to your adult life.  What you do right now, may have effects on the way you mature.

If you have big dreams, where there is a will driving them, there is always a way to attain them.

And to the adults:

The 20 something’s call me Mama SIN.  I don’t feel old when they do that, it’s a sign that they look up to me as a mother figure… As a parent.  This does not offend me.  What offends me is shitty parents and broken people as a result of babysitting passed off as parenting.   While your kids are being told that they should learn and mature, you too have some growing up to do.

In conclusion, your personal reality can be warped by perspectives.  Learn to be more discriminating in those you will allow to influence your thoughts.  They can have positive and negative effects.  If you have personal wants and needs, then obviously you have to examine why you think you want or need them.  Introspect is also a perspective to have.  Examine yourself constantly and analyze where all these impulses are coming from.  When you say “I Want” in your own head, how can you know which aspect of yourself wants it if you don’t examine it?  How can you know if you are being influenced to want it and where are those influences coming from?  If you feel powerless then maybe you are being driven by the wrong influences.  If you feel sad or depressed and think your entire life sucks, then what are you really doing to actively improve your situation?

Ask the questions, and then seek the answers.  Personal progress doesn’t just happen.  It takes work and being responsible with both knowledge and power.  Both can corrupt you if you are irresponsible with it.

People have neither the right nor privilege of living corruptly at the expense of their children.


Adversary to the herd?

It’s amusing really when the herd is on the field chewing cud.  They sure gotta a lot to say in their coffee klatch but when faced with a real person they skidattle in fear of the cattle prod.

Social Forums breed herd mentality.  Believe me when I say, I’ve had entire threads, groups, and wall discussions about my person.  At closer examination it’s a bunch of herd animals projecting their internal inefficiencies.  Insulting a person’s exterior is not the same thing as dealing with the person’s interior.  It’s the same old hat, “Sin Jones you are fat, ugly, have a big nose, and think you are so great! “ 

As a matter of fact I do think I’m pretty great.  Any person that lives insecurely and feels slighted when ridiculed with such childish arguments isn’t exactly earning my respect.  If you have an issue with me be direct and WITH ME.  Otherwise, you are just yapping away and showing yourself for what you really are all the while puffering and peacocking like you are some tough guy on the Internet.  *finger twirl*

Anyone familiar with my person would KNOW that I am always direct.   I am certainly not going to address every personal insult, it’s counter productive and a waste of time.  I don’t expect everyone to find me attractive or likable, and equally I might find you less than desirable according to my personal preferences.  I can however find qualities in people I am attracted to like a moth to flame.  You might have a stellar sense of humor and razor sharp wit, I find that very attractive.    I find weakness and self-pity to be quite ugly. 

I rarely find myself adversary to the herd but will at times blow the horn and get those cows moving.  Otherwise, they are mucking it up for the rest of us on a grander scale.  Sacrificial Cows, I say. 

A formidable adversary is one of an equal or higher skill set.  One can be adversarial to just about anything, it doesn’t mean it’s worth it.  We all have limited time in this life, and we should spend it wisely.  If you have ever found yourself at the end of my blade, then you will certainly remember it, and perhaps you may still be lamenting over it.  Get over it.  Get over yourself.  


That’s my advice.  

Sin Jones

The Poison Apple