Holiday weirdness here we go!
I make bank deposits daily and around the same time of day. It’s the same bank teller every single day without interruption; every day its “Have a Happy Thanksgiving!” My gawd woman, every day? Either it’s Bank Policy or the humdrum of routine but I still find it annoying. That, and assuming every person celebrates Thanksgiving. I don’t. I did when I was younger mostly to get my dysfunctional family together (which we rarely do, if ever) only to regret the decision which is why I stopped doing it!
Occasionally I’ll get a dinner invitation from friends I may or may not accept. I don’t always accept. This year, it’s like any other day. My grandmother calls me to tell me she’s going to the casino to gamble in Tampa. No traditional family dinner, she’s tired of it and I say, good for her! Gambling sounds way more fun than dropping $200 on a dinner and dirty dishes.
I can’t stand Christmas and the only reason I put up all the holiday crapola was for my kid. My kid is grown. When he left for the Army you bet your ass all that shit went into the dumpster. I saved the ornaments because I figured he may come home for Christmas at least this year and he is. We had the ‘tree’ discussion and to my surprise, he agreed that he didn’t need it. Maybe that will change when he arrives home and I’m prepared. I get it, it helps him feel the excitement of getting stuff and he likes the old wassailing traditions. I guess he doesn’t know any other way because I sure haven’t taught him. In fact, I’ve probably taught him that any day is as good as any to get stuff and wish your loved ones ‘good health’. He’s pretty spoiled but not so much to turn him into an insufferable brat.
Me? I’m the brat. I call it Christmas Crap, I’m the Grinch, and I’m cynical about all the reasons people choose to celebrate the Holy Days. Pretty sure my son will call me Queen Grinch at least a dozen times while on leave and maybe even grab me and shake me “Mom, why do you hate Christmas!”
Most, if not all, people are just excited to get stuff and maybe some snow. The turning of the wheel kind of thing. All those religious weirdos that take this holy stuff seriously are on T.V.. They certainly ain’t in my social strata.
Then there’s that New Year’s Resolution shit, you know these people making promises to turn over a new leaf or start with a clean slate are deluding themselves. If they really wanted to stop or start doing something, they’d already be doing (not doing) it.
And finally, my birthday which lands on January 3rd. I get all that “No wonder, you’re a Capricorn!” shit so often I want to throat punch every last person that makes mention of it. Instead, I just stay away from people in general. Lone Wolves ain’t got shit on me. It’s been days since I’ve seen a living breathing person, and it can go on for weeks and sometimes months. So if I come off insane at times it’s because I live in my own head that I have to force myself to step out of it. I can appreciate the value of Artificial Companions and disposable people. It seems sociopathic if not cruel the way I use people like paper bags and I make no apologies for that because it is. At least in contrast to what other people (unlike me) would have to say about it.
Holidays don’t make me depressed or upset, I just sort of shake my head and roll my eyes at the pretentiousness of it all. It will be over later rather than sooner because it’s only November. A whole fiscal quarter of this stuff.
There’s perks around this time of year too, don’t get me wrong. People are all “Good Will to All!” so they’re awarding you with cash prizes, shorter days to labor and longer days to stay in all cozy by the fire. Then snow days! It may cost you a day of business on one hand but on the other, it all comes out in the wash in the end. I’d rather stay in and make stuff than go chase carrots and pies in the sky anyway.
I tell myself to just tune it out, breathe, look away and don’t kick over plastic snowmen. At some point, you can bet your ass poly-resin Santa and his merry band of idiots are getting a cunt punt! Just not today.
Reminds me of that Reiki Affirmation (SIN-ified):
Just for Today:
I will not worry,
I will do my work earnestly,
I will honor my teachings
I will not destroy shit
I will give living things a pass,
Just for Today.