I Don’t Vote…

In response, the usual comes my way.  “Then you can’t complain.  You have no right to an opinion!”  What a crock of shit.  I’m not an avid complainer anyway and I’ll dole out opinions as I see fit.  I’m of the opinion that voting is just a placebo of mind.    I haven’t voted since before the Clinton Administration.  I admit, I pulled into the polling place during the 2008 election and decided it was just a dumb idea and left.  I didn’t vote.   I thought about it but decided that it was an ill-conceived idea.  Impulsive and automated, I saw myself there as if I wasn’t even the operator.

“Voting matters!”, ” Your vote matters!  ” the masses cry and I couldn’t find a single fuck to give if I tried.  It’s all so very bizarre to witness.   Especially from the outside.  I was once in, among the crowd, those standing in line to do their ‘Civic Duty’.  I chalk it up to the errs of youth.  Many people around me say that I’m making a grave error now.  To what end?  Cui Bono?  I certainly don’t.   Besides, the Electoral College is full of people indoctrinated by fuzzy politics   with their own ideals and agendas.  They aren’t mine, nor do they concern me.   Even if I’m taxed, I play the game as well as anyone cooking books for profit.

We are born in a country, we have no duty to it.  I don’t care how many ‘Patriots’ tow the party line.  A choice to swear allegiance is removed when children are bludgeoned into a false pride of country.    I think real power is executed when one can effectively navigate the terrain no matter the topography.     Rights and Privileges allotted by the State haven’t made the trek easier, they are always obstacles in the path.  A stone here or there, or a pebble in your shoe.  To complain is like throwing rocks at the sun.   I’m not in the habit of existential crisis.

People tend to get rather Utopian during the Presidential Elections to the tune of Arhurian legends complete with Lancelot shimmying down the drain-pipe.  The idealistic leader will rise on the throne and save people from their own ineptitude.    Little do they realize the  Branches of Government   are grown from the same Tree .    I’ll leave them to their Treehouse in Camelot.  Dreamers dream to attain, a way to see a path to the things they need or want.    Meanwhile, I’m out here living and sometimes discover I want things when I have the means and don’t really need much.    I find that needy people don’t really do much, if anything at all, to get what they want.  I find it difficult to be sympathetic towards them.  It’s all so very simple yet complexioned by politics.

I have eyes to see and ears to hear. It’s rarely a mystery to me when people feel disenfranchised.    Especially in 21st Century America.    People strip themselves of their own power when they make foolish choices.  It doesn’t matter what your socioeconomic background is, if you want it bad enough – you’ll do what it takes to get it.   I for one, will not accept excuses and call you on your bullshittery.

 

 

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Charlie, Billy and dolls that go bump in the night

Billy is one of many hand-crafted dolls by Mary Shaw, a fiction film from 2007 called “Dead Silence“.  Mary had no children of her own so her dolls became her children.

Beware the stare of Mary Shaw. She had no children, only dolls. If you see her in your dreams, be sure you never, ever scream or she’ll rip your tongue out at the seam.

BILLY DEAD SILENCEBilly was designed during the mid 1930’s and was favored by Mary Shaw at that time.  During one of her last performances in Ravens Fair, a boy heckled her during her show.  That boy was Michael Ashden, that she later kidnapped, and kept confined as punishment for causing her embarrassment in the rather prestigious theater.

When the boy turned up missing, Mary Shaw was immediately suspected.  She was a loner that kept to herself and only seemed to be comfortable with the public with her dolls.  The Ashden family and a few friends busted into her dressing room, assaulted her and ripped out her tongue.  Having ended her life, Ravens Fair would be rid of that old Mary Shaw for good, or so they thought.  Upon her death, she had very specific arrangements.  She would have her likeness be altered to look like a doll and she was to be buried with all of her dolls.  Her request was fulfilled and she and her dolls were buried in a corner of Ravens Fair Cemetery.

She had the ability to haunt and kill many people of Ravens Fair for decades.  The nursery rhyme was a way to pass along the fear, her lore wouldn’t never die.  At least, not before all of the families involved in her death were killed off.

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Charlie McCarthy was also made in the late 30’s, modeled after Edger Bergen‘s doll used in his act.    Much like the original tradition of the ventriloquist doll, the original replica was made of wood.  Several carnations of the same doll were made over the decades, the final version was the Vinyl (the version I own) produced in the 70’s.   Even if I have the box and all his accessories, he isn’t worth all that much as a collector’s item.  If one happens upon the antique from 37′ that may be worth a bit.   Charlie is less the ‘haunted doll’ than Billy is but Billy is based on the original Charlie McCarthy.

As for Mary Shaw seeking to be buried with her dolls, I believe it’s a version of the Madam Alexander story.  One of my dolls (Victoria) just happens to be one of the original molds she chose to be buried with.  The rights to the rest were sold off a number of times since her death.  Some of her most precious doll molds were buried with her when she died.  So, even an infant doll with a doll maker’s past can be creepy to some people.  It then becomes iconic.

BillyThey’re just dolls right?

Charlie is often confused for Billy.    Clearly different dolls but to the person with a phobia of dolls, they’re all just like Billy.  Haunted dolls that could kill you.   People often ask me why I keep such a doll around, as if I’m taking an unnecessary risk.  I find that funny.  The doll is merely a bit of nostalgia from my childhood.  Practicing ventriloquism was a challenge and I like challenges.

The 70’s knock off doesn’t have the same functionality as the 30’s version, it then makes Charlie a prop.  People are so often spooked by inanimate objects.  I keep him around for the effect.

Sin Jones

What’s all the to do about god?

If you’re one of those types that  will defer judgment in favor of dictionaries, I’m speaking of this definition:

a person or thing of supreme value

Supreme as the highest rank of authority.  Some examples: Money, Family, Friends, Material Goods, Knowledge, Approval, Celebrity, Station, Accomplishments,  etc.

Ideas can be god.  Especially when they are placed on an altar of worship.  What get’s your attention?  What would you hold in such high regard? What would make you immovable? What drives you and towards what?

Apathy expressed towards the mundane is because it’s dull and lacks luster.   All things banal and uninteresting, where  the extraordinary is sought to be experienced.  Where none can be found, people tend to seek out some higher purpose, or some semblance of vision.  The imagination tends to play a role in this, a place where ideas are replaced with ideals.

It may account for why so many people are in the thralls of sociopolitical topics like Human Rights and Freedom.  It adds a sheen to daily routine as if talking ideals has altered the reality of what one is actually doing.  The ‘to-do’ has some rather interesting synonyms (among others):

noun commotion, excitement

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Agitation is an efficient communicator, at the very least it can tell you when something has your attention.  Otherwise, apathy takes care when a topic is raised.  There’s only a small number of topics I find interesting enough to intrigue my thoughts. Topics that demonstrates human absurdity.  In writing for various publications over the years, at the Editor’s request the phrase “human condition” had been used when I’d breach a topic.  Condition is a funny sort of word, it can be both an adjective and noun, especially when describing the state of being human.

I’ve often been described as being a confrontational or insulting writer. The focus on condescension has always been intriguing to me.  I get the same descriptor when I talk and I always write in the same manner in which I speak.  Maybe these people just need to spend a year in New England, to pick up the essence of it, the form is merely consequential.  Born and raised there, I can distinguish what is cultural from my pathology but the two are intertwined.  The Latin caduceus would be a suitable symbol to carry this message not so unlike the kAru in Sanskrit. Both an art and a science.

I’ve been told that I should adjust if I want to gain a fan base.  I’ve been removed from writer’s lists, banned from message boards and told (in the politest way possible) that I’m just too agitating.    As if gaining a fan base was my end goal.  It never has been.  If readers become the anti-fan, then my efforts weren’t for naught.  If my presence doesn’t invoke a deep-sigh, then I’m just as mundane as doing the dishes.    The truth is, I’m well aware that I’m over-analytical, seem to talk in circles and tend to exhaust the audience.  That’s sort of the point.  As Marcus Aurelius put it:

“For Myself”.

It’s a rather interesting experiment to conduct, just to see how strongly a person holds ideas (or things) Supreme (including my own).  Will they falter?  Hold ground?  Does the topic stand on its own merit or will it come crashing down like a house of cards?

That old saying that if you stand for nothing, you’ll fall for anything doesn’t ring true, at least not in my head.  Anything can be approached from many angles, chipped away at, and until only dust remains.

“This thing, what is it in itself, in its own constitution? What is its substance and material?” {Marcus Aurelius}

Perhaps this is where the leap is taken to Nihilism, if one misunderstands the form and its contents, then it accounts for this reductionist approach.  Ideas can be annihilated but it doesn’t mean the person holding the idea goes down in flames with it.    If the activity gives rise to depression and existential crisis, then god is dead.

I can’t help but applaud to that.

Sin Jones

The Adversary in the Scriptures

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Is it the Devil?  Satan? Your Enemy? Conflict? You? Them?

People seem so certain and yet, their interpretations are in flux with the message intended.  Sure the scriptures have been translated, transliterated many times and a lot gets lost in this process.  Scribbles on paper have become both Gospel and Sword and the biggest fear during the English religious Reformation of the 16th century was that people would begin to challenge what they were told and seek to better understand the importance of the Words.   To ensure the supremacy of the Roman Papacy? Dominion of Kings?  What determines their worth?  In the 21st century we can look back at these historical events and think:  “These people were quite mad!”  How different is it today?  There’s still a class-system. incarceration system and capital is still GOD.   We see the parallels drawn between America and the Roman Empire but do we really see them?

There’s always been a clear message to me in the Scriptures from Genesis to Revelations.  Knowledge corrupts and that which you know can not be unknown, no matter how deep you bury your head in the sand or bury that information in your head for that matter.  The Great Beast isn’t going to emerge on the horizon like Godzilla.  It’s always been more subtle than that and that mistress of Babylon, is the great union of Church and State.  Only, it’s not the power of the religious or the matters of the people.  What does any of that matter when it’s just you against the blade of the world?

Daniel 7:17

These great beasts, that [are] four, [are] four kings, they rise up from the earth.

Daniel 7:18

and receive the kingdom do the saints of the Most High, and they strengthen the kingdom unto the age, even unto the age of the ages

The age of ages.  In the 21st century people have been led to believe that they are free.  Free from the Dominion, Free to Choose, Free to be as they are.  Free. Free. Free. I don’t believe that, never have and probably never will.

Some say that the Bible itself is the great Mark of the Beast and that the Roman Papacy purposely changed the Sabbath day to Sunday to ensure that God’s Commandments would be broken, thus damning adherents to hell eternal.  Does this make the Pope Satan?   Hold back your laughter, it’s funny I know but plenty of people believe this which is why the Catholics are most hated among Christian sects.  Universal?  Hardly. Break-away groups challenge Catholic Orthodoxy and go their own way to live this so-called ‘good Christian life’.  Why was a messiah necessary in the new age, if all believers had to do was follow God’s Commandments to avoid eternal punishment?   Matters of the there-after, are only of concern when you stare death in its face anyway.  I’d say people are more concerned with daily distress of living, not dying.  Life is a Battlefield.

Matthew 10:34

Ye may not suppose that I came to put peace on the earth; I did not come to put peace, but a sword

Does that make Yeshua Satan?  Perhaps in some regard to the Classical Hebrews.  What bothersome people they were, which may account for their conquering by both Assyrians and Babylonians. That’s the ancient propaganda at least.  The Semites we encounter today are more likely to be entirely different peoples.  How could they not be?  Time, events and generation after generation tend to change a people.  I am so unlike my ancestors and I couldn’t even attempt to emulate their way of life or thinking.

During the Hellenistic period we see more scribbles penned by Hellenized Jews about a Savior.  People that feel oppressed tend to look for heroes to save them from plight.  Is slavery a state of mind?  Can conquered people be Free?

Enter the Adversary.  As young as I can remember there was always some force of power pushing against me.  Pushing hard too.  When you’re a small child and it seeks to break your spirit (like breaking the spirit of a horse) it gives you cause to lament.   In youth you learn your lessons, the most valuable being those had in your self. I could either continue in my distress or see my way through it…Beyond it.  If I was being forced to do something I didn’t want to do, or saw no wisdom in doing, I learned to play along in some cases and in others fight against it by claw.  The former is easy, the latter can give rise to great personal injury.

Having been injured time and time again, you also learn Pain. In doing so you also increase its threshold.  While I’m quite the vain creature, my body is covered in scars.   Some have trivial stories behind them while others could never be trivialized by the telling of their story.  I’ve caught myself trying to convey a message pointing to remnants of a past that could never truly be understood, by anyone.

In that regard, the Scriptures remain Occult.  If you’ve been there, you understand.  You can’t un-know what you know.  You’ve been corrupted by it.

Daniel 7:25

and words as an adversary of the Most High it doth speak, and the saints of the Most High it doth wear out, and it hopeth to change seasons and law; and they are given into its hand, till a time, and times, and a division of a time.

Luke 22:31

And the Lord said, `Simon, Simon, lo, the Adversary did ask you for himself to sift as the wheat

1 Samuel 29:4

And the heads of the Philistines are wroth against him, and the heads of the Philistines say to him, `Send back the man, and he doth turn back unto his place whither thou hast appointed him, and doth not go down with us into battle, and is not to us for an adversary in battle; and wherewith doth this one reconcile himself unto his lord — is it not with the heads of those men?

1 Kings 11:14, 23

And Jehovah raiseth up an adversary to Solomon, Hadad the Edomite; of the seed of the king [is] he in Edom

And God raiseth to him an adversary, Rezon son of Eliadah, who hath fled from Hadadezer king of Zobah, his lord

Numbers 22:22, 32

and the anger of God burneth because he is going, and a messenger of Jehovah stationeth himself in the way for an adversary to him, and he is riding on his ass, and two of his servants [are] with him

and the messenger of Jehovah saith unto him, `Wherefore hast thou smitten thine ass these three times? lo, I — I have come out for an adversary, for [thy] way hath been perverse before me

1 Chronicles 21:1

And there standeth up an adversary against Israel, and persuadeth David to number Israel

Psalm 109:6

Appoint Thou over him the wicked, And an adversary standeth at his right hand.

Zechariah 3:1-2

And he sheweth me Joshua the high priest standing before the messenger of Jehovah, and the Adversary standing at his right hand, to be an adversary to him.

And Jehovah saith unto the Adversary: `Jehovah doth push against thee, O Adversary, Yea, push against thee doth Jehovah, Who is fixing on Jerusalem, Is not this a brand delivered from fire?

The message from the Apostle Peter was this:  BE ALERT. KEEP YOUR MIND SHARP.  I’d take that a step further and say, it’s valuable to be self-aware but we forget. It’s easy to forget.  To forget what you know, the pain, the memory of past errs, and so, the best anyone can do is to remember. Remember yourself.   The ego has been regarded as Devil and I believe that to be true.  Ego eimi.  Even in a scriptural context the Apostle John regards it as: I have been… What I know is not just collecting information from source material but rather life experience wrought. I have been there.  The Devil inside propels me.  It may account for why I’d never ride a horse either.

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SIN JONES

Cult of SIN Challenge: Update

IMG_5805On September 8, 2015 I posted THE CULT OF SIN CHALLENGE and by September 30th a package arrived!  Huzzah, at last I own my own copy!  I suppose I should eat crow, it appears the assumption is in fact TRUE, as if I didn’t know that?  Thing is, why should cult followers be ashamed of getting swept up in a cult of personality?  There’s a draw isn’t there?  Some of the anonymous users I’m in contact with have been following my content for years, some even dating back to the 90’s.  Is it my mind? Content? My body? A combination of these things?  Only they can tell you that.    When you express a culture, you cultivate a following. It’s just as simple as that. There’s no right or wrong to it.   If some get a little carried away it’s just the nature of the space.  The Internet is just the carrier.  Mind is the terrain.

I was once accused of “Collecting Bitches” and maybe that’s true to an extent.  I can’t really argue with it.  I mean, you’d have to be a Masochist to put up with me right?  Seeing that I’m so abusive, confrontational and relentless in my inquiries.  It’s apparent to me which of my following get personal gratification from our exchanges, which retreat (only to come back begging for more) and those among them that see what’s really at play.  It’s just a conscious nod of amusement.  I can sure be entertaining!  Cults of Personality have both pros and cons and somewhere in between, in the dark corners beyond is something so few dare to explore.

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Christ Johnson, aka Heliosdramus, aka Chris John “Proud Sinion”

Speaking of perks, all I asked for was the film. To my surprise, I got (3) bonus items!  Upon removing them from the box, I thought:  What madness is this?  Low and behold, I received not one but two personal massagers (wink wink) and a hematite bracelet.  A Trinacria of Vanity.  I’d call it the full body package.  Good show Mr.!  If you frequent Occult, pagan and Satanic venues I’m sure you’ve run into him.  He describes himself as a former Marine & Luciferian, I’d just describe him as your average blue-collar, Harley riding guy you could easily bump into at your local watering hole.  Would you ban him from the bar for being a goon?  I doubt it.  People on the netz rarely have the same conviction.

Thanks for the goodies Chris, you rock in my book!  Our communication is all public, the lulz, the goofing around and we rarely take this shit that serious.  The Internetz is serious bidness’ they say!   Yeah, well fuck em’ if they don’t get the joke!

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SIN JONES

Fighting for Honor: Conversations with James Jackson

James Jackson writes:  “Occultism feminism panthers Hollywood symbolism spelling it out for secret societies to brag about Bastet witches Mafdet cats witchcraft and other inferior pagan ideas…”

The occult schools are trying to define what is hidden in religion an they are notorious for being fraudulent and lying for power and influence. There are countless contradicting occult societies and they are all inferior and their magic has failed to defeat me at martial arts for instance. One of many examples of them coming up short.

Inferior to what?  One must place a set of ideals on a pedestal before you can begin to address those that are inferior.  James goes on to say:  “There is One God and through him I am over 100-0 in martial arts. Long ago people would prove their religion through wars. When the smoke cleared the 2 largest religions are Christianity and Islam. Now secret societies are manipulating people to destroy those 2 religions so that is how it ends. Masonry, rosicrucians, theosophy, wiccan ect ect greek mysteries, dinoysus, orpheus, platonic schools of thought and more. Philosophy and religion go hand and hand. Religion seeks to join or reconnect with what is spiritual. When you are doing all guess work it is meaningless, only TRUE prophets can define the relationship between God and man. “

Only TRUE prophets?  You can imagine my skepticism with regard to self-awareness.  Just seems to me that Mr. Jackson is getting a bit caught up here.  It may spark an interesting discussion (or Not), It’s led to a scheduled interview and using my… What did he call them?  “You are a satanic feminist who dabbles in witchcraft, one look at your channel and pic one can tell that. What secret society of spiritual bottom feeders do you belong to? THe relationship is supposed to be with God not the devil. Prophets tell it better than anyone else ever has so the proof is in the pudding.”

Moi, a Feminist?  Supposed to be?  Secret Society of Bottom Feeders?  Well hey, sign me up!  Not sure what this guy is trippin’ on but if offered, I’d say “No thanks”.  Pride & Vanity, one of the Devil’s Favorite sins…  Honor?  I’d be curious to learn how this fellow not only defines it but would see it in practice.  Our discussion is scheduled for 9/25/15 6:30 EST.  Any predictions on how it will turn out?  Devil-animated-animation-devil-smiley-emoticon-000386-large

Update: here it goes!