Exploring the pathology of fear is a long-term interest of mine. I found THIS BLOG to be stimulating and it should serve as a relatively good example of how Satanists, generally speaking, are constantly questing for truth and for contrast/comparison and introspect.
Fear can be reduced to a biological function to safeguard the body from harm, but fear of the mind is highly complex and not as black and white as one would imagine. Our compulsions for fear are often nurtured through programming. Whether that programming is familial, cultural or inherent really depends on the particular fear a person holds. Consider if you will the nature of phobias. A friend of mine is an arachnophobic, and I keep spiders as pets. The very notion of having a Tarantula in my home (even if it’s caged) will thwart my friend from visiting my home. My tarantula recently died, but my friend will not visit because I’m well known for not killing house spiders. I let them stick around until they die and then sweep away webs and carcasses. My friend finds me to be ‘crazy’ and I can’t help but laugh, because she’s the one with the phobia. This phobia stems from having been bitten by a poisonous spider when she was a child, so the pathology of this fear can be traced. When I first moved to Virginia, unfamiliar with native spiders I was bitten by a Brown Recluse. I was smart enough to Google search it, print off a photo of it and take it with me to the emergency room. I suffered a bit but not hesitating to visit a medical facility certainly eased my suffering and severity of injury.
Between the two of us, I can see the distinct differences in our situations. She was bitten as a small child; I was bitten as an adult. Her bite wasn’t detected as quickly as mine was and so in her mind any spider is a danger and will cause her pain and suffering. For me, I study arachnids and insects as a hobby so I can distinguish the harmless vs. the harmful. Some people just freak out over the creepy-crawly of bugs. The feeling of an insect can certainly make the skin crawl, and I’m not exactly covering my body with bugs like its bliss. I still do the bug freak out myself if I feel something crawling on me and I don’t know what it is. In the back of my mind there is still a fear of being bitten by something deadly. So you see, we both have our fears but some fears are more severe than others depending on the person and their unique subjective experiences in their lives.
As friends, we laugh at each other when we are having our own unique bug freak outs. When you encounter strangers with fear you don’t exactly have the same relationship with them as long-term acquaintances and friendships. There isn’t always a level of courtesy and consideration extended to others, and some people even believe they are entitled to it.
A recent issue was brought to light over the last several weeks that I believe should be addressed when discussing Fear in Satanism. Some individual Satanists have a Fear of being exposed to the public and be subjected to persecution and even prosecution should that social hysteria come to a head. Theistic Satanist Diane Vera comes to mind. If you are conducting research about Satanism in general, whether you are a Satanist or not, you can’t help but bump into Diane’s extensive website. You can see the care and attention she’s taken in providing valuable information to the general public. In my opinion, she should be both acknowledged for that effort and given credit for her hard work. A website is a labor and one that takes dedication and diligence in keeping it up to date.
Over the years, I know I personally have linked to her site on countless occasions to provide readers with some perspective from Theistic Satanists. Whether we all get along, or are friends is moot in lieu of fostering understanding about Satanism overall. As some fundamentalists parrot archaic notions about Satanism I point to its evolution. In my perspective when things stagnate and anchor themselves to a past that is rendered obsolete, we cannot progress forward. Not as Satanists and not as human beings.
Diane Vera is pseudonymous for a real person with a legal name. It is her right to have her privacy and for whatever reasons she feels justified in having it. During a crazy chain of events, Diane’s privacy was trashed in favor of the personal agenda of another Satanist. It only reinforces the Fear that Diane has had over the years of which she has been labeled a paranoid delusional by other Satanists. Satanists have Witch Wars much like the pagans do. I identify as pagan so I have a leg in both. While I am public about both my views and identity, Diane would prefer to maintain her privacy. The veil of anonymity was ripped away from her and by a Satanist that Diane was working with online. We all take that risk. Now’s she’s left to deal with both her fear and determining who she can trust and befriend.
What does she have to Fear you ask? There are many social issues that Satanists face in our modern society. What those social issues are depend on where you live and your life’s pursuits. Diane lives in New York, and I live in Virginia, but we both face similar issues in our respective states here in the U.S. It is unfortunate that Diane and I began speaking by phone under these circumstances, but I have extended to her my aid and support while she is under personal attack by other Satanists. Her fears are certainly justified.
There are polarizing people in our midst and I have addressed some of the larger issues we face when dealing with them in past blogs. Social Media is in use by the Bullshit Artist to tear down their enemies, peddle their wares, and rise in ranks on search engines. Diane Vera’s website has held a strong #1 position when searching for Theistic Satanism, and Social Predator Tom Blackwood has been after this position himself for over a decade. And so, he has been orchestrating several strategies over the years to accomplish this. Tom is an opportunist much like his accomplice, so in recent days a joint-effort was forged to blatantly attack and defame Diane’s moral character. A volume of smear and defamatory content has been entered into the search engines to thwart Internet users from visiting Diane’s site, to bring it down in the ranks to render Diane Vera herself obsolete.
These examples offer the reader reasoning behind such Fears. My primary point here is to address that there is pathology to be addressed before ever addressing both willingness and capability to overcome them. We all run the risk of living in Fear, if we allow ourselves to be dominated by them. Some Fears are more manageable than others but at the end of the day, you have to keep on living. If a phobia of spiders developed into something more drastic like never leaving the house an intervention might be orchestrated and by people who show both care and concern for the person being defeated by their fears. The more apathetic we are towards people the more this fosters dysfunction and insufferable people for the rest of us to deal with in some capacity.
We are Satanists yes, but we are also human beings with the ability to care and demonstrate our concern for our brethren. It is with this notion in mind that I offer my assistance when I see other Satanists being attacked and without cause by others. Through my view screen I see the damage they cause in the Macrocosm while people are focused on the Microcosm.
I do my best to keep a wide perspective as this modern society moves forward while maintaining my empathy. Apathy leads to nothingness, inactivity and death. It can also make one bitter and resentful towards others which exude from our inner-core. I’m often asked why there are so many angry Satanists, my answer? Many haven’t faced their fears, and many have unresolved issues they are dealing with on a daily basis; Fear of both the unknown and that which is known to the individual. It may be painfully apparent to the voyeur or speculated on some internal imagining.
“I must not fear. Fear is the mind-killer. Fear is the little-death that brings total obliteration. I will face my fear. I will permit it to pass over me and through me. And when it has gone past I will turn the inner eye to see its path. Where the fear has gone there will be nothing. Only I will remain.” – Frank Herbert’s Dune
“The realization of what I am occurs in the timeless awareness which does not stimulate nor delude. I create a field without self or center, a field where even death becomes only analogy. I desire no results. I merely permit this field which has no goals nor desires, no perfections nor even visions of achievements. In that field, omnipresent primal awareness is all. It is the light which pours through the windows of my universe.” –The Stolen Journals
In closing, we must descend inward before we can ever spiral upward.